you’ve been so cruel in my dreams

I’m still dreaming about you every night. sometimes you make a brief appearance, sometimes it’s all about you.

lately you’ve been really mean to me. you’re so cold and cruel, and not just to me, to other people too. like you don’t care about our feelings. you say and do things that hurt me, that make me wonder if you love me, if you care about me at all. if you ever cared about me.

these dreams make me sad. you weren’t like that irl. but what if that’s how you felt on the inside? I don’t know if I ever really knew you, if you ever showed me the real you or if you were always putting on a front. I’d like to believe you were yourself with me, or at least the most yourself you could be. but ill never find out.