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Life After Erica

surviving after my little sister's suicide

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Anger and denial

I can’t even put into words how much I miss you. I still can’t believe this is real after 3…

anger, bereavement, grief, love

ache

there weren’t any cars close enough for me to see their licence plate and I had to concentrate extra hard…

anxiety, bereavement, death, depression, grief, mental-health, PTSD, suicide, trauma

licence plates

I’ve been avoiding thinking about you lately I don’t feel like dealing with any emotions right now it’s hard because…

alone, anxiety, bereavement, death, depression, grief, mental-health, PTSD, suicide, trauma, triggers

retraumatised by the worst dream I’ve had (so far)

you were back, you were with me but it wasn’t really you. kind of like that episode of black mirror…

alone, bereavement, death, depression, dream, grief, mental-health, PTSD, suicide, trauma

why has it been worse?

hi oob what is going on? why do I feel so much worse? nothing has happened, nothing has changed, why…

alone, anger, anxiety, bereavement, death, depression, grief, mental-health, pain, PTSD, suicide, trauma

so much worse

I was driving home from dinner, listening to music. i dont wanna be in love by Good Charlotte came on.…

anger, anxiety, death, depression, grief, mental-health, PTSD, suicide, trauma

all of a sudden

I was listening to music and scrolling through Facebook and I scrolled past a video posted in a sibling loss…

alone, anger, anxiety, bereavement, death, denial, depression, grief, mental-health, PTSD, suicide, trauma

I can’t stop thinking about you

since you died, I haven’t been able to enjoy things the same way. i rarely go on YouTube now, all…

alone, anger, bereavement, death, depression, grief, memories, mental-health, PTSD, sleep, suicide, trauma

how am I feeling?

I don’t know anymore, I don’t know how I am, how I feel. I took time off work because I…

anxiety, death, depression, grief, mental-health, pain, PTSD, stress, suicide

staying in bed all day

I didn’t get out of bed until almost 6pm. I had work today but I didn’t go. I was too…

bereavement, death, depression, grief, love, mental-health, PTSD, suicide, trauma

calm down

I got out of bed at 4 yesterday. mum had gone shopping around 3ish and life360 showed she was home…

alone, anger, death, depression, fear, grief, memories, PTSD, suicide, trauma

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